Life has been reduced to the next 10 weeks.

It’s hard to live in such a small timeframe, but I have no concept of what life will be like after the baby is born. I know the sun will still shine and my neighbours will go to work and news will happen — I know there will be constants.

But I’m struggling with knowing that I, as I know myself, and my world as I know it, will never be the same after Baby Girl is here. How does one process and prepare for such a monumental change, espeically before it happens?

I take comfort in knowing that billions of women have done it before me. That does not, however, make it any easier to deal with.

Family talks of next Christmas. A girlfriend talks of visiting Hamilton at Easter. My drinking buddy (hi Trevor!) talks of bar hopping once the patios open next year. My coworkers today brought up "when you get back."

It’s difficult to imagine those times with a daughter in the mix. How will my relationships with friends change? How will they view me? Will they want to? What about my family? Will I see my mom, my dad in a new way?

A baby. A daughter. I’m going to be a mother.

I’m scared.

Possibly related posts:

1. Go vote, daycare update and Friday’s wild poll
2. Spacing
3. To have or not: the baby debate
4. Dealing with death
5. No hippie beads here